I'd Rather Go Blind

"Oh, I would rather go blind, boy
Than to see you walk away from me, child
You see I love you so much that I don't want to watch you leave me, baby
Most of all, I just don't want to be free, no"
Etta James & Ellington Jordan

"For freedom Christ has set us free; stand firm therefore, and do not submit again to a yoke of slavery."
Galatians 5:1

Do you love your sin more than you love your Savior? There have been many days where I could say, "I do." How many times do we allow sin to have a foothold in our life? Or, more importantly, how many times do we repent of our sin but toe the line between sin and righteousness? Often, I find myself not fully surrendering to Christ because of my freedoms He has given me and the pride associated with such. By doing this, I am toeing the line and the enemy is looking for a way to bring me down. If we really wanted to live a life of freedom in Christ, then why do we allow sin to slow us down, drag us through the mud, and keep us from living pure, holy, and blameless? It is because deep down, we love our sin. We want to hate it. Sometimes we do hate it. But there is a thin line between love and hate, so while we may repent for a season or two, the second we stop abiding in Christ, the enemy reminds us that we once loved our sins. My prayer is that the sins of my past, sins that disgust me, sins that I have repented from, stay in my past. Many times in life, I ran from God because I didn't want to give up my sin. I did not want to walk away from sin and I did not want to be free. And in my pursuit of pleasing myself and looking for happiness and joy in temporal things and carnal pleasures and in the esteem of others, I realized that I would never be free. You see, my desire now is to being able to sing this lyric to Christ and truly mean it. Through Christ's freedom, I want to aspire to become a slave to righteousness and daily crucify the flesh that tempts me so. For too long, I've chased lovers less wild. So let us enjoy our freedom to live a righteous life and abide in the One who gives all good things. Let us submit our whole lives to Him and Him alone.